Wednesday, December 12, 2007

the hormonal rollercoaster...

No, I'm not talking about myself (though books could be written!)...today I am thinking about our son. He is eleven...a tough age for sure. One minute he is hyper and spazzy and goofy...the next minute he's a grouchy bear-of-a-boy and ready to chew your head off if you get too close.
That was our morning today...
I feel far away from him. I don't know when to pay attention to his feelings and when to say "enough". I don't know how to connect with him, how to make him smile, how to make him feel good about who he is. Honestly.
When he was a toddler, he threw some monstrous tantrums...and it brought me to my knees as a parent...asking God what to do, how to handle myself, what to say. I am there again. On my knees, because I would do anything for this boy-about-to-be-a-man.
If you are of the praying sort of person, I would appreciate you sending some up for me. Also, for my husband and his side of the family...we found out late last night that his aunt died unexpectedly.
Do you ever wake up and feel like you can taste the pain in the world? Sorry if this is a total downer. Maybe I need a gingerbread latte.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'll be praying for you both Cathy!

Anonymous said...

hugs and thoughts

Anonymous said...

Hi there fellow frustated Mom!I have four daughters ,two are teen abd one will be in one month.I'm right where you are.It's like walking on eggshells and thats from my husband.:((( I'm taking my oldest into counseling next week.It starts feeling like you (you said it perfectly)there's no time to connect!???!!! Kids these days have so much more to deal with!I try to keep telling myself that! My second oldest told me last night she just feels like there's fighting all ove the world.
They need comfort.Take good care of yourself and your family! Much love ,Carlyn

true believer said...

honey, I almost cried when I read your comment about tasting the pain in the world. you know I feel the same. you are beautiful and the boy is just going through a phase. thanks for being my honey and taking care of all of us.